Street lights casting shadows
Of my form on the street
For every light, another shadow
Darkens the ground at my feet.
Theres another cast from the storefront,
From the light pouring outside
And a fleeting one for the moment
That the cars headlight passed me by.
All these shadows on the ground,
Cast from all these lights out on the street
All these shadows that surround
Are like another view of me.
So of all the shadows which pass me by,
As I walk this lonely path at night,
Which one can I say is I
When the shadow is different under different light?
And as I walk shadows disappear
As I leave each
Come nightfall
Come the ending of the day
Ive lost the light to lead me on my way.
With dusk my strength fails me
And a great weakness grips my limbs
So that all I can do is take a few staggering steps
To lay beneath this slowly dying tree.
Through the barren branches
The moons cold light is all that shines down on me.
When did this battle become too much to bear?
So much that at days end I collapse without a care?
I once had the sun shining down on me,
Illuminating my path
And showing off all of my victories.
Yet came nightfall; the ending of the day
Now alone I lay beneathe a slowly dying tree.
Fire, Water, Air and Earth;
Those are the forces that to these stones gave birth.
Those same forces are alive in me,
With out power shared, let us see.
Divine the future,
Explain the past,
Let the answers lie in these runes cast.
Earth and Sky, Sun and Moon
Reveal this to me as your boon.
Don't scream. Don't cry. by KuraiMachete, literature
Literature
Don't scream. Don't cry.
Dont scream.
Dont cry.
The call will draw the Dark inside.
Hearts are such fragile things
That they will willingly go where the darkness reigns.
Should you cry in fright, shock or fear
When at last before you, your hearts light appears
Into the darkness your heart will flee
And only darkness will come from where it used to be.
So dont scream,
Dont cry
No matter how much the light might sear your eyes,
For such a call will send away
The fragile light a heart emanates.
Sometimes Im not enough
To satisfy myself.
Whos that girl in the picture?
Surely Im not her?
Sometimes I think Im fat,
Sometimes I think Im short,
Sometimes I wonder who I am,
And in the mirror, who is that?
Standing next to my peers,
I feel inferior,
Looking so beautiful, so fair,
I fear I dont compare.
I wonder if I see myself
For how I truly am?
Or is my image of myself
Skewed by some mental scam?
Sometimes I dont like myself
And I wish that I would change
Sometimes I know for sure I should
But dont know where to begin.
But then sometimes, late at night
I stretch before t
Today we fall to the end of days.
Say goodbye and the last of your praise;
After this there will be no return,
So go ahead, let the sorrow burn.
This right here is the end of the line.
Its really too bad, there was time to try
To stop this before the apocalypse came,
Now we are left to the survival game
Because now we are trapped in the end of days.
Say not your regrets, stave off your prays;
There will be no return to the ways of old,
So go ahead, let the rage take hold.
So much for humanity
So much for love
Look what barbarians weve become
Now that the end of days has come.
Yesterday we fell to the en
Long before my memory's eye can see
I can remember your face smiling over me.
And so it remained as you watched my life go by,
And I watched you grow, time by time.
So every night, I lay by your side,
While you slept or while you cried,
And purred until your tears grew dry,
Or the morning's light shone upon your slumbering eyes.
But the time passed by,
I grew old, and you grew up.
No longer the young girl who took me in,
But a beautiful woman, yet still my kin.
I was a Libra, born in the autumn calm.
But as summer brightened the skies of dawn.
Cancer came for me to claim
To end my life, as though I was but a pawn.
Bright whit
Silver and Gold Velvet by KuraiMachete, literature
Literature
Silver and Gold Velvet
Like golden velvet,
Streaked in ebony
With eyes of liquid gold
Fluid, ferocious,
Beautiful,
A god.
Or in silver,
A black bestriped phantom
Eyes a cutout of the sky
Watching,
Knowing without ever having known.
An earthly angel.
Of death?
Some say yes—
These infant killing villains
Ought be slain
Removed from this god's earth
Furs worn in coats
A show of wealth
Of evil,
Of our darkness.
I feel their pain.
Their cries,
Calls of power
Shake the very ground.
Harbinger of death
To some;
To fools—
To me not.
Silver and gold angels,
Of death?
Yes—
To their prey:
To the weak who fall in their wake,
To the cowards who
In the New Year, do you know what I found?
I found my creativity drowned.
And in that moment of realization
Tears began to gather and then they fell
I saw there was nothing written on my paper
And my hand was still
And my heart was killed
And my grades began to blunder
I felt my pride be ripped asunder
And yet my hand did not move
My creative heart was gone for good
Before long, I fell apart
Nothing could cure my crying heart
Breath came hard and shallow
My chest feels tight
Even now I'm losing might
I wake and ache from pains all over
And my head hurts like no other
And before I know it I say aloud
"I do not have the will
Mom, Dad,
And Brother too,
This promise I make to you,
Because I know you worry about me a lot,
Since I don't tend to be the happy sort.
You worry because I get mad so fast
Hold a grudge and get real sad.
I'm sorry I'm not a better child.
But this promise will make it all worthwhile.
Mom, Dad,
And brother too,
And all my friends, I promise you,
Because I know you worry about me a lot,
That I might one day give suicide a shot.
(Though I'm sure you all know
It's much more likely I kill someone else.)
I'm sorry I'm not a better friend
Or the best of kids, I don't follow societal trends.
I'm sorry I'm not sweeter,
But this prom
How I view the world... by KuraiMachete, literature
Literature
How I view the world...
How do I view life and the world in which I live?
I see this…
This world is corrupt.
Or shall I say this world sucks.
Evil wins and money restricts the righteous,
Respect is undeserved,
And for some reason the right thing is the hardest thing to do.
Crime is normal
As is war,
But they are never close enough to force a change,
Death is not enough.
There is always a black and a white
(Even when there's not)
To everything.
I don't know why people strive to simplify life…
And seriously,
Since when was childhood just training time for adult life?
What about childhood and play?
Innocence and laughter are lost or abandoned all too
I sit within my room,
The walls painted a deepest shade of blue
And the blinds are drawn shut;
My world to you must seem so dark a hue.
But at times when my work is put away
My walls disappear
Replaced by other colors clear
And no longer matter my worries, my fears.
I stand in a field
So open— So pure
Or I sit, or I dance
At peace and demur.
Surrounded by grass or by forest
Be it night or light of day,
Or surrounded by rivers and mountains,
Be it of dawn or of dusken stain.
Where there is silence, or music—
Whatever I please.
Whether I be there alone
Or accompanied by spirits clean
Not a person in sight
No one can possib
At the end of the day.... by KuraiMachete, literature
Literature
At the end of the day....
At the end of the day my life relives itself as my mind takes flight.
It is at moments like these that I look back and see my entire life blur together into one meaningless jumble. Has my life meant anything? I find myself divided and I don't know if I'll ever be whole again. Am I insane? I wouldn't doubt it. I see myself as this: bright student who doesn't give a shit; some wonder, suicidal?; proud and worthless; impatient for progress; depressed with change; confused about the child I used to be, the dreams I used to have and still love, and who the hell am I and whatever will I be?; antisocial; slow to make friends but accepting of most k
In the dark of night I step into my front yard,
Dog on the leash for her last walk,
Only to find the world lit by a thousand tiny stars.
The sky above is dim and dark
Yet the stars are twinkling within my sight.
I wonder only briefly from where the light comes
As I admire the charms of this night.
The train roars an incessant drone
And the cars that pass make the darkness break,
Their passing marked by automotive moans.
The stars turn on and off for mystery's sake
As though a star in a tree is not mysterious enough.
A cricket cries to the south, then the east…
Tonight the moon's glow gives the clouds no fight
And not a single
Once on a stormy night
I had a dream.
My friend had it too.
Wherein a flood stole in through the window
And swept us to our dooms.
We woke on an island
Far far away
And there the nightmare began,
One it goes on today.
Half a year we stayed there
In a world far away
Fighting for our lives,
Our freedom,
And theirs.
Struggle and sadness
Occurred everyday
Betrayal turned out to be
The only way to save us—
To save us,
To save them,
To help us get home.
To help us to save them
Our saviors betrayed us,
Then fought hard to spare us
The agony that wait.
Somehow we escaped
We fought back and won
The evil that threatened
We d
Today we fall to the end of days.
Say goodbye and the last of your praise;
After this there will be no return,
So go ahead, let the sorrow burn.
This right here is the end of the line.
Its really too bad, there was time to try
To stop this before the apocalypse came,
Now we are left to the survival game
Because now we are trapped in the end of days.
Say not your regrets, stave off your prays;
There will be no return to the ways of old,
So go ahead, let the rage take hold.
So much for humanity
So much for love
Look what barbarians weve become
Now that the end of days has come.
Yesterday we fell to the en
I hope you realize that while I fail to update this journal I actually write in my blog regularly, just so you know. I just thought that since I don't actually get to speak with you all that often, maybe I should do some posting here.Maybe.
How's life?
Life is good. Thanks. I just finished my anthropology exam and got permission from two professors to head out early for spring break so that I can attend a freaking sweet symposium on environmentalism in Asia taking place in Kentucky University. Tatematsu Wahei, the author the book I wrote my final report on in Japanese last semester is speaking thursday night on current environmental issues
I've been home for nearly a week now. I haven't updated the journal at all because I was a sick jet lagged wreck until yesterday. I passed all my time reading entertaining crap online (aka fanfiction). I'd lay around and nap all day, wake up shortly after my parent went to bed and realize that I couldn't sleep anymore. I was going to go insane. My being sick and needing to sleep while my body still assumed that day and night were switched really messed me up. It doesn't help that My flight home took off after a full day of activities in Japan (while I was sick and very surprised at my continuing consciousness). 9.5 hours to San Fransisco, 3.5
Hey, I leave for the airport in five hours. Then I'm on my way to Japan! I don't think I'll be updating any journals in my time away, but I will keep a travel journal to keep track of all those good stories!
I'm sure everyone goes back to school before I get back. Enjoy spring semester. Have fun!